short question, long story

[centennia]

Hi all,

Ever since childhood I've been going through things I shouldn't have, besides the "things" i remember, i also think i've got blocked memories, tried everything even hypno but since i live in townsville. There only 2 here one was to busy the other one does not want to do hypno for some reason.

I've done every reiki level but that was years ago, can't get it back, my thoughts are so full I can't get nothing new in there.

In my 40's now and for nearly all of those years every thing that could go wrong went wrong, all the important stuff that should have been a life experience & great ended up disaster.

I've got high anxiety, depression, panic attacks, compulsery bla bla disorder,
I've started level 10 of life flow 3 days ago and the crying seems to get worse on a daily base, if my partner gives me a hug or says something nice or bad, don't matter what (movie's, nothing at all )set's me of.

The question is could it be, "it get's worse before it get's better"

Thanks Centennia