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Join Date: Dec 2007
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Okay, well how's this...
I first got into meditation a couple of years ago, but that was a totally different technique, which involved counting the breaths, etc., which a yoga teacher taught me.
Over time, I explored other variations on my meditation technique, always experimenting, and beginning to try out mantras. I then spotted a web page which has a similar technique to the Project Meditation one, and I tried that, and it made me quite relaxed.
When I discovered Project Meditation, I was on the verge of getting it right, but listening to the audio training files really helped me, it really helped me stay on that track and make it work more effectively.
What I now do, is I say the mantra "oooowaaaaa" (which is a meaningless sound to me). I usually start off saying it quite fast, which feels like the natural thing to do at first. I then let it naturally slow down over the session, until it is very slow towards the end, and I can often just let my mind be completely still towards the end.
I find that I often get extremely relaxed when meditating this way, and often come out of the meditation feeling very refreshed, relaxed, positive and enthusiastic about whatever I'm about to do at that time, even if it's something quite simple.
At the very least, I meditate once a day, but it is nearly always twice a day. Quite often it is even three times a day. My times for meditating are: In the morning after doing some yoga postures, and just before bed at night; I often try to get an extra meditation session in just before dinner, after I've come home from work. The ironic thing is, this session is often the most enjoyable and effective, as it relieves the tensions of the day I've just had, and prepares me to enjoy my relaxing evening.
Usually, the only days I don't meditate at this time, are the two days a week when I go swimming straight from work, so I get back later. I think we can all agree that physical exercise is as good a reason as you can get for not managing to do three meditation sessions in one day!
Anyway...
Fealing Beautiful Inside:
Recently, I have started to gradually feel this lovely warm feeling inside. It's subtle, but it's definately there, and it's lovely. The only way I can describe it, is like there's a bit of sunshine shining inside all day. It's almost like a continuous very weak spiritual orgasm. It seams to often be enhanced by the sound of peoples voices, but not everyone's voices. Sometimes seeing two people have a conversations enhances it quite a lot; it's almost like I can sense the energy going between them at a deeper level.
It's only got this good just recently, in the last few weeks, since I really got comfortable with how I say my mantra, saying it fast and then slowing down; and also since I started meditating three times a day on some days.
Another thing that I have noticed lately, is that my ego seams to be disolving. I no longer do or say things with the same need to be recognised or to push my opinions, skills or sense of self onto other people. I feel less hurt by insults, yet I also don't feel particularly that bothered by compliments either. Instead, a more steady, gentle joy has been emerging, and I just enjoy doing things, being creative, chatting to people, etc. It's like the physical boundaries between us are merely of a shallow surface level.
I know that there are other factors at play here. I have been embracing my creative side a lot more recently than I had for a long time (and that's for reasons not related to meditation, it's to do with other aspects of my life), I eat a very healthy diet, including consuming herbs which boost wellbeing, I do quite a lot of exercise. And of course, life is never perfect. We all have days or moments which aren't as good as they could be.
But there is definately something going on here. I can feel something gentle but beautiful emerging which I feel wouldn't have been there if I wasn't meditating in this way. I don't even know if this is the right word to use, but I almost feel like I am slowly becoming enlightened. I am starting to feel like the things most people seak pleasure in don't actually matter to me.
And I look at all the people in the world, so many of them doing so many things, going to visit so many places all round the world, and consuming so many material and/or chemicals/foods. I think to myself, that's not what it's all about, you're all looking in the wrong place. You already have everything you need right inside you, it's just nobody has given you the key to unlock it and let it out.
Michael, I think you are doing a wonderful thing here. But then you don't need me to tell you that. You probably know it to a far deeper level than I could ever explain.
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