Changing Outlook

[Optimist]

Dear everyone, from members of the Lifeflow team to all on the forum.
I started using Lifeflow last June and will soon be downloading Lifeflow 3. Although my initial reasons for embarking on the programme were a desperate need to gain control of an out of control condition (I’ve had ME/CFS and Fibromyalgia for 10 years now ). I am now beginning to see just how regular meditation with Lifeflow is changing my outlook.
Where I constantly used fight with myself, I somehow now accept the limitations, which at first was a little frightening, perhaps because I confused acceptance with simply giving in. Also, where I would dwell in the past and bemoan my losses (fit, active, successful career woman), I am now learning to live in the present and wonder actually if I have now gained more than I lost ….. and from that standpoint, see a good future. I am learning to listen to the creaks and groans of my body and work with them rather than against them. As each month goes by, I feel less of a vulnerable statistic and more of an alive 50 something who still has half a life in front of her.
I can’t say it has been easy, and it is still ongoing. Every so often, I feel an emotional broad side that almost knocks me off my feet as stuff that I have buried rises to be acknowledged. And sometimes, I’ve even felt too tired to play the beautiful sounds, even though I know it would help. I can say though that I can get out of each day far more with a peaceful and contented mindset, than with thoughts of dread and complaining, even if I ache all over!

But what I would like to say to you all more than anything is that I have sat very quietly at the back of this forum reading every query and every enlightened answer to guide me on my way and encourage me on my journey. Not only have you answered my unasked questions, but you have also put me in touch with wonderful books and guides to other areas of my life. And as my gratitude grows for all the good in my life, so too does it grow for all the contributions of this forum and the wonderful work of Michael and his team. A sincere thank you and maybe one day, I might feel confident enough to contribute to the wisdoms too.

Kindest regards,
Rose x

[Dimos]

Dear Rose,

It 's wonderful in how many different ways people have benefit from the LifeFlow program. Everyone on his own, in different parts of the world, and somehow being united in this beautiful forum.

You surely didn 't chose the easy way to handle your illness, but it's by far the best way! All physical therapies are second best. ( I am saying this as a physical therapist / shiatsu therapist ) By changing your outlook you can change your world completely!

I wish you much peace and joy on further journey

With warm regards,
Dimos

[GilesC]

Hi Rose and welcome to the forums.

What you describe is a shining example of how our mind tries to control us rather than us controlling our mind and how you've turned it around for yourself.

It is good to hear your story and I'm glad you've decided to stop being a 'lurker' (as we often call people who read forums but don't post)

Hugs

Giles

[pollyanna]

Thankyou Rose for your truly inspiring story - whether you stay behind the scenes or you take part in the community, It's nice to be aware of you. I wish you an abundance of peace and joy

[Dimos]

to post or not to post?
It 's all fine!
Non dogma please.

[Optimist]

Thank you for your encouragements!
Physical therapy, Dimos, still plays a valuable part. I guess the difference now is I am becoming more focussed in incorporating set gentle exercise movements into my daily life, rather than resenting the fact I had to do them in the first place. They won’t make me better but they help to keep me supple and moving and meditation has somehow quietened all the distress for me to see that.

Giles, you made me laugh! I now have visions of myself lurking in the shadows like Gollum from Lord of the Rings! I think my lurking is/was more a loss of confidence than anything else, although I can say that is something else I have noticed increasing since starting Lifeflow. I would avoid conversations with strangers because I lose words and tracks in sentences. (Brain fog symptom) The more stressed I got about it, the worse it would become. I still lose words and track but I’m ok with it and even laugh about it now, and it doesn’t get worse, which is a huge difference. It’s opening up my world!

Thank you too Polly for your wishes. I have a long way to go (do we ever get “there”?) but at least now I am beginning to enjoy the ride!