My log: Will visualisation work for me ???

[Edwin]

Hi guys and gals !

I have decided to "blog" my visualisation efforts here, and hopefully I will be able to motivate people to also start changing their lifes through visualisation.

I will start by telling you guys what I have done so far, and the things I experiance, both positive and negative. Feel free to react to my stories, and please help me where you can, I am just starting this and so far the results were not exactly what I expected... but here we go:

As you can read in Pollyanna's "What are you attracting right now" , I started about 2-3 weeks ago.

This is what I wrote down there:

In 2000 I took over my father's locksmith business.

Almost right after that, due to the Euro and the war in Iraq, we had a recession in the Netherlands, which almost cost me my business.

I got an idea for selling safe's online, and became quite successfull, which ended up helping me keep my business.

The last 6 months I had kind of come into a slump, going about my every day business without innovating much or thinking towards the future.
A few months ago I discoverd "Project Meditation".
The old site Michael had was nice, however I spotted some things he might have done better in my opinion, having some experience, I wanted to return the favour to Michael for his free meditation course and gave him some pointers.

Just 1 or 2 months later, he came up with this new site, which is brilliant, and might I add, he did this on his own as I could never have thought of a plan like this, having a community help each other out !

Now here is the funny thing:
I was one of many to inspire him to change his site, and he did this so brilliantly, he inspired me to change my business ! It's great how positive thinking will free energy like this !

Within the next 2 months, I am going to change direction, and set course for a bigger business.
A befriended advertising agency agreed to help me for a special price, and so I will get a new company name, a new logo and designs for new paper and businesscards, as well as a new sign above my shop.
Also included is a design for a new webshop, from where I hope to expand my business up to a point where I will have to hire at least 1, and preferrably 2 employee's.
This will help me get out of my last moneyproblems, and will help me provide for my family better than I was able to do so the last years.

This is dream number 1

Dream number 2 is the car that goes with all this: the Chevrolet Captiva.

I have decided that today ( januari 14th 2008 ) is going to be the first day I will actively do the visualisation exercise with these dreams !

I will tell you when I have reached my goals !

[Edwin]

And a few days later, I wrote down this:

I am so glad I joined this forum !

thank you too Pollyanna, you guys are the best motivators !

Yesterday evening I tried it for the first time, and I noticed a very nice side-effect :

I had finished a 35 minute meditation, did the 2 minutes eyes-closed, and started the way Michael explained on CD 2 of the meditation course I think it is,
first I was gratefull for my family, then my friends, then my health, and then I visualised my 2 goals until I had a clear picture of what I wanted.
Then I visualised standing in my new business, with my 2 daughters ( 3 and 5 years old ) sitting on my arms, with their cute little arms wrapped around my neck in a cozy little hug as we like to do so often. Then I turned around in front of the window to see my new car outside, and I could hear my oldest daughter asking me " Is that the car we are going on vacation with ? " And I answered " Yes sweetheart "
The nice side effect is, from the moment I started visualising getting that hug from my daughters, I smiled, and I kept on smiling for about 10 minutes !!!

visualising your dreams is WAY easyer this way, before it didn't work because it was hard to believe this could actually happen to me, but visualising it with that hug.... it feels so good I want to keep on doing it !

I hope I am doing it right it feels that way !

[Edwin]

For me things started to go wrong to my own feeling right about here at that time:

I have been quite busy with my 2 attraction projects last week.
The results aren't what I expected, some good some bad.
However I am giving you guys an update so you understand what is going through my mind at the moment.

Last friday, I went to the bank with my sister, who is an accountant. I had received the nessacary paperwork from the accountants office, and talked everything I wanted through with my sister.

The talk we had there was a intellectual fight of 90 minutes, after which my sister and me were both exhausted.
The bank agreed to certain things ( amongst others, my car ) which is a good thing, but other things that could help my company grow faster which might be a bit of a risk for them, they didn't agree to... yet.
I have to say yet, because they argued quite strongly on those points, but refused to say yes or no on the matter, leaving me hanging for the entire weekend.

So I am still meditating, using the exercise of graditute, but the conversation has left me feeling a bit... angry actually ( didn't even recognise it until the next time I meditated ) because it felt like an attack on my efforts to rebuild the company the last couple of years, and I hated that.

When I am at peace with that again, I suspect things will improve again for me. I guess I expected things to "flow" easily for me, but I realised that it doesn't work like that, I can control my mindset through the graditute exercise, but I still have to work to get what I want.

I am not giving up, I know what I want and I will get it !

I feel different now, because Pollyanna explained some stuff to me. I suggest you read the whole story here : What are you attracting right now?

[Edwin]

Today it's januari 28 2008.

Last week, I got a call from my accountant, telling me that I was to expect a big bill from the Dutch IRS.
I will have to pay this bill within 2-4 months, and this will put such a big strain on my company, I have to ( for now that is ) let go of my dream of buying the car I want right away. The car I am currently driving is falling apart, I HAVE to buy a new one.
also, as much as I like how the chevrolet looks and drives, I am starting to dislike certain things about it, the most important one is the strain on the environment it will give. It is definately not an environmentally friendly car, and I do care about those things. Unfortunately we don't have Bio-diesel here, or I would have let the car get rebuilt for that.

Since I have less money to spare, my wife and me started looking for a different car, and we noticed this one: Citroën :: Citroën Grand C4 Picasso

This car will give the luxury I want for a better price, and ... out of time, will finish the rest tomorrow work got in the way

**and I am back.
This car will give the luxury I want for a better price, and my wife loves this car too !
So, in retrospect, I think this car is a better car for me, most important thing is my business. I will continue visualising my business, and the Captiva with Bio-Fuel, and I can sit back and wait for it to come while I enjoy my Citroen Picasso

[Edwin]

Januari 29

To finish my story, after having processed the disappointment of being turned down by the bank, I am starting to see that I was expecting results within a certain time.

Attraction is a process that doesn't have time limits or deadlines, so expecting results this soon was kind of silly.
Also I noticed that since I was going through a time of crisis, I stopped meditating or at least didn't do it nearly enough !

Tonight I am going back to a full meditation every day ( 30-40 mins. ) and I hope to get my normal positive attitude back !
I have so much to be gratefull about, and there is nothing wrong with wanting more out of life, but letting your wishes dominate your life the way I did really is a bad thing.

I will still be "gratefull I allready have what I want" during the exercise, and let the universe deliver whenever the time is there.
The key here is to stay focussed, even when you are down, and not to give up, but it sure was hard the past week.

I will update this one in about a week, or whenever something get's "deliverd"

[pollyanna]

Hi Edwin, message for you in What are you attracting now

[pollyanna]

Hi Edwin, I felt you were having a hard time and I have been thinking of you and wondering how I could help. My move to France which includes all my children and grandhildren which is 9 of us and 4 dogs was done the hard and painful way. I wouldn't have done it for money. It was a complete life changing decision and everyone has benefitted hugely from it. Through LifeFlow meditation and understanding our map of reality and resistance coupled up with a much better understanding of the Law of Attraction I am now doing "the happy version" as I call it of attraction. I just posted a new thread I believe will give you all the answers and peace of mind too!! Happiness and joy

[Edwin]

I am now using Pollyanna's document for attraction, nothing much to report on that so far but I did think it was important to tell that I have just purchased "Think and grow rich" by Napoleon Hill.

This book is in the list of almost every successfull person, both in this forum as well as outside of it.

I expect great things from it.

I read in other threads that some people seemed to think that tapping yourself into the abundance that we have around us could be considered selfish.
I don't agree, I don't want to grow rich because I want a new Porsche, I want to grow rich so I can give my family the life I think they deserve.

Is it wrong to be rich ? I am I stealing from the poor ? I beg to differ. I make an honest living, and in the 8 years I have my own business I have never tried to doublecross anyone. I want to grow rich, but not that way !

If I were to ask for happiness instead of wealth, I might be considered to be selfish too, as other people are not happy and here I am asking for happyness.
Well I am sorry, but this is my life, and for convenience sake I am assuming it's the only one I have ! As long as I am not hurting people around me, I am going to do whatever it takes to not waste it feeling sorry for myself or other people who bring misery upon themselves.

Growing rich is not the ultimate goal. Look at Pollyanna, she grew rich enough to enjoy life with her family without worries. She came from a place where she didn't want to be, and fought herself up because she didn't want to accept where she was at that time.
That little house in a bad neighbourhood where she raised her kids is now probably inhabited by another poor chap/gal. One can feel sorry for those unfortunate ones, but not for another reason than that they don't have the persiverance to keep fighting for a better life.

I have my mind set on the good life, I don't need millions, I just want to not have to depend on banks.

Sorry for the essay, but I just had to tell you about this next step I took.

[Peaceful Warrior]

Go for it dude!!!!

I don't think your selfish either. I think it takes courage and discipline to change the outcome of your life and I admire that greatly.

The law of attraction or whatever you want to call it is similar to meditation as a discipline. It may be slow at first and you dont really see many results but if you stick with it results begin to change your life.

If people would just have a little discipline for there own sakes, they CAN turn there live around applying the right tools such as LOA and meditation.

Problem is, I think many are more comfortable telling themselves things like meditation dont work so they dont feel a failure when they quit!!!

May sound a little harsh but thats my thoughts anyway...

GO FOR IT!!! Great book choice by the way. Pw

[Edwin]

Thanx PW !

I am trying to write down my feelings of the moment, and if you look at them you can see I have had some ups and downs allready.

Strange, I only started about 4 weeks ago with the LOA, and it allready feels like an emotional rollercoaster.
I can now see why it is so hard to keep it up. When you are down it's even hard to stay on Meditation, let alone also practising LOA.
I intend to keep going for it, and feeling committed to end this thread successfully just might be the nudge in the right direction I needed.

I just got the book in the mail, can't wait to check it out !