Earlier this morning a short email on another website turned my normal start of the day to becoming unbelivably sad, confused, lonely and just plain tired. I have been trying to shake this but am not succeeding. I have been trying to understand "why" an email has turned this day into one of just trying to get thru it. Actually I think my "state of mind" for the past few weeks has been no good at all and this email just pushed me into this time of reflection. I have been just existing lately with a complete lack of ambition, drive or interest in anything that goes on around me. I have been using LF 10 for about 2 weeks now and wonder if this is part of what is going on with me. During my meditations I can tell I am resisting due to physical symptoms that come up i.e my legs get tense, jumpy, and they hurt at times. When I come out of the meditation I feel achy, out of sorts and just plain awful. I was a user of HS but stopped using that due to cost of the program and the physical side effects I was getting while using HS. I wanted to jump back into meditation and came accross LF and like it so far but it is bothering me what is going on in my head lately and the way I have been feeling. I am being treated for depression and have been on meds for awhile and now I wonder if that has stopped working also. I have been searching on that topic and what I have read just depresses me even more. YES it is possible that the dosage and meds I am on DO STOP working. Damn it! It bothers me to no end that I am on meds and now I find out they might not be working either!! I'm really not sure why I am writing all this but I just want to spill my guts today. All it took is one lousy email this morning to push me into this despair I feel right now. I know this too shall pass as it alway does but it sure hurts while I am in the middle of it!! Again sorry for the pissy tone but "it is what it is" today! Thanks!