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Discussion in 'Mind, Body & Spirit' started by Divinitywolf, Mar 23, 2008.

  1. Divinitywolf

    Divinitywolf Member

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    Hey there everyone.

    I'm having a bit of trouble finding things to do in life.
    I know there're loads of opportunities and activities out there but when i'm at home i'm lost at what to do and easily get bored.

    When i'm on the computer i'm either on project meditation or i'm talking to friends over msn but when no friends are online and i've run out of things to reply to and read on here then i don't know what to do.
    On the computer and off the computer its the same situation.

    Have any of you got suggestions that might spark up my life?

    Divinitywolf

    P.S: no suggestions that i meditate :p. I already do!
     
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    stuck

    :) Hi divinity wolf
    Tell you what, take yourself out for a walk and feedback to me about how beautiful it is out there, I can get as far as the garden at the mo.
    I know that you're planning university so you need to find things that don't cost the earth, so whats better than drinking in its beauty and using it when you visualise and do the gratification.
    Also there are loads of charities that would be grateful of a volunteer, whether thats doing someones shopping or assisting them in some way, volunteering in soup kitchens etc opens up your eyes to what you have and also many lonely people get to see a friendly face who wants to help others, it does wonders to know that you are doing something to help another person, it also helps develop social skills and if as you say you're studying psychology then what better way to develop an understanding of humans, ther roles within society, what makes them the people they are and why. this would be so great for you!
    Hope that helps xx
     
  3. Divinitywolf

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    :) thanks twinkletoes.
    Yeah the world is beautiful out there but its when i'm in the house that i have a problem with boredom.
    I don't want to forever be outside as its freezing! at the moment.
    Yeah i'm considering getting a job as i'll need the money for university.
    But until then i've considered writing a novel but i'm struggling to find original ideas.
     
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    You could always try to learn how to play an instrument... Or as you suggest yourself writting a novel/short story is also good. In general I find most things that are more or less creative often help myself battle the boredom ;)
    Reading books (or news papers for that matter) is also a good option. Or if you are into that kind of thing, you could always use your computer to play some games as well.
     
  5. Divinitywolf

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    Well i do currently play the piano. I teach myself at the moment but am looking for somewhere to have lessons.
    Good suggestions guys. thanks :)

    Yeah i like writing poems.
    I could post some of them on here if i knew where to post them... and i did write in the suggestions section that we should have a creative section.
     
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    Hi Divinitywolf, I don't know if you have read "Think and grow rich" or any self-growth books. I know they probably sound boring but I believe what they do is waken up the great ideas you already have within you. They may help you to realize what you want to do and believe me, if you find what you really love to do, you will never be bored again and you will live life with passion. Happiness and joy to you :) :) :)
     
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    Yeah i've been thinking of buying one of those books.
    I'll certainly consider it.
    Thanks :)
     
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    One of the threads tells you where you can download that particular book for free. I'll think about a creative area also.
     
  9. Divinitywolf

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    yea i've recieved the link to the site but i don't like reading e-books. Its so much nicer to have a proper book that you can read away from the computer screen.
    Thanks for considering my suggestion :)
     
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    :)Yes dw i saw the link too and like you i would rather have a book and sit on the sofa. It's great of you though michael to have put in the link :):)
     
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    I'll have to check up on it but i think its Polyana that found the link.
    Maybe Michael and Polyana should share the credit :D
     
  12. pollyanna

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    Pas moi. ;) I mentioned the book because it changed my way of thinking but someone else said where it is available. I have read many books, some I have gained a little from, some a lot, but this is the book that blew my mind. For the first time in my life, after years of soul searching (but not sure what I was searching for) it was like a switch went on in my heart and mind. I had always believed successful people were cleverer than me or had some special gift. But not anymore. It was the dawning of a dream, of a better way to live. :) Then for a long time I road a roller coaster of excited, depressed, excited, depressed. But I had a dream of a better life for my children so I walked the road less travelled. Sometimes it was so hard and lonely because nobody really believed me. Somewhere on that road I wished for a little while that I could go back to my ignorance of not knowing what I had learned. Then I walked on (Like the Liverpool song) with hope in my heart because I realized that "once a man's mind has been expanded by a dream - there's no turning back" My children have seen me create a beautiful picture of a wonderful life and work hard to achieve it. They also know that it was my deep love for them that was my driving force. I couldn't have done it for money, or a car, a boat or a holiday. As you know my story, it was for the walks in the woods and listening to the birds, seeing the deer come into the garden, listening to and watching the birds in the beautiful tree outside my bedroom window as I enjoy my morning coffee. I don't shop much at all except for food. Even then, after many years of counting the price of the articles in my shopping trolley to make sure I had enough money when I got to the checkout, I'm very grateful that I haven't had to do that for years. As for having the real book, I totally agree with you. They are truly great investments. I am currently creating a little library of them and one of the true blessings in my life is that my children are all hooked on them too! I hope you enjoy it as much as I did and I wish you happiness and joy always :) :) :)
     
  13. Divinitywolf

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    wow. With a story like that YOU should write a book!
    Write an autobiography of your life. That would be a stunning read.
    I'm glowing with admiration for what you've achieved and i'll buy the book and hopefully achieve my dreams as you have achieved yours.
    Real books are fantastic to have, especially when you get older and you've still got your collection of books that you had as a child.
    Passing them down to future generations is also brilliant.
    :)
    Thanks Polyana!
    Peace be with you.
    Divinitywolf
     
  14. pollyanna

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    A poem for you Divinitywolf

    Hi Divinitywolf, thankyou so much for your lovely message. My purpose in life is to inspire others to become the best they can be. I have been inspired with so much that I have read. Because you like writing poetry I thought you might enjoy reading the following one. Many years ago I read this and it was like a massive wake up call. The amazing thing is I picked up another book the same day and found the same poem. :confused: (And they weren't poetry books. :eek: At that moment I realized I had built barriers around myself so thick and strong to protect myself, but this poem pierced right through them and into my heart. I vowed that day to tear away the barriers and it was like pulling the stickiest plasters of the hairiest body but it was my saving grace. I hope you enjoy it and I wish you peace and happiness :) :) :)

    Please hear what I am not saying.

    Don't be fooled by me.
    Don't be fooled by the face I wear
    for I wear a mask, a thousand masks,
    masks that I'm afraid to take off,
    and none of them is me.


    Pretending is an art that's second nature with me,
    but don't be fooled,
    for God's sake don't be fooled.
    I give you the impression that I'm secure,
    that all is sunny and unruffled with me, within as well
    as without,
    that confidence is my name and coolness my game,
    that the water's calm and I'm in command
    and that I need no one,
    but don't believe me.
    My surface may seem smooth but my surface is my mask,
    ever-varying and ever-concealing.
    Beneath lies no complacence.
    Beneath lies confusion, and fear, and aloneness.
    But I hide this. I don't want anybody to know it.
    I panic at the thought of my weakness exposed.
    That's why I frantically create a mask to hide behind,
    a nonchalant sophisticated facade,
    to help me pretend,
    to shield me from the glance that knows.


    But such a glance is precisely my salvation, my only hope,
    and I know it.
    That is, if it's followed by acceptance,
    if it's followed by love.
    It's the only thing that can liberate me from myself,
    from my own self-built prison walls,
    from the barriers I so painstakingly erect.
    It's the only thing that will assure me
    of what I can't assure myself,
    that I'm really worth something.
    But I don't tell you this. I don't dare to, I'm afraid to.
    I'm afraid your glance will not be followed by acceptance,
    will not be followed by love.
    I'm afraid you'll think less of me,
    that you'll laugh, and your laugh would kill me.
    I'm afraid that deep-down I'm nothing
    and that you will see this and reject me.


    So I play my game, my desperate pretending game,
    with a facade of assurance without
    and a trembling child within.
    So begins the glittering but empty parade of masks,
    and my life becomes a front.
    I idly chatter to you in the suave tones of surface talk.
    I tell you everything that's really nothing,
    and nothing of what's everything,
    of what's crying within me.
    So when I'm going through my routine
    do not be fooled by what I'm saying.
    Please listen carefully and try to hear what I'm not saying,
    what I'd like to be able to say,
    what for survival I need to say,
    but what I can't say.


    I don't like hiding.
    I don't like playing superficial phony games.
    I want to stop playing them.
    I want to be genuine and spontaneous and me
    but you've got to help me.
    You've got to hold out your hand
    even when that's the last thing I seem to want.
    Only you can wipe away from my eyes
    the blank stare of the breathing dead.
    Only you can call me into aliveness.
    Each time you're kind, and gentle, and encouraging,
    each time you try to understand because you really care,
    my heart begins to grow wings--
    very small wings,
    very feeble wings,
    but wings!


    With your power to touch me into feeling
    you can breathe life into me.
    I want you to know that.
    I want you to know how important you are to me,
    how you can be a creator--an honest-to-God creator--
    of the person that is me
    if you choose to.
    You alone can break down the wall behind which I tremble,
    you alone can remove my mask,
    you alone can release me from my shadow-world of panic,
    from my lonely prison,
    if you choose to.
    Please choose to.


    Do not pass me by.
    It will not be easy for you.
    A long conviction of worthlessness builds strong walls.
    The nearer you approach to me
    the blinder I may strike back.
    It's irrational, but despite what the books say about man
    often I am irrational.
    I fight against the very thing I cry out for.
    But I am told that love is stronger than strong walls
    and in this lies my hope.
    Please try to beat down those walls
    with firm hands but with gentle hands
    for a child is very sensitive.


    Who am I, you may wonder?
    I am someone you know very well.
    For I am every man you meet
    and I am every woman you meet.


    Charles C. Finn
    September 1966
     
  15. Divinitywolf

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    Wow... that practically describes how i used to be, hiding behind a mask and trying to be someone i'm not. I'm now learning to be myself and am getting more confidence and worrying less about what people think.
    That poem is great. I like the layout of it, the occassional rhymes and the prose format.
    And i loved! the end 4 lines. They really create a massive impact on the reader and sum up the poem in its entirety. It really made me think. I'm glad it made you think as well Polyana and i'm glad you've acted on it and are changed :)
    I'll post some of my poems for people to read and enjoy. Its a little off topic but its something i like doing in spare time.
    Bear in mind that i wrote most of these poems quite a while ago, when i wasn't the happiest person in the world so i hope they don't seem to depressing.

    Here is my favourite poem.
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    The Life of a statue

    A broken mind, ever watchful.
    Frozen eyes that never see.
    Standing tall amidst chaos and corruption
    Bitter envy wells up at the lives of others
    And the subtlety of life goes unnoticed.
    Emotions merely drifting through a cold heart,
    Homeless and forgotten through the ages of time,
    Struggling before harsh winds and unremitting rain.
    The cruel chink of a chisel marked its creation;
    A single purpose marking its boundaries,
    An unwanted purpose shaping its meaning.
    Never befriending a soul or shedding a tear.

    Thus: The life of a statue.
    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    This next poem is based on Socrates' similie of the cave, if any of you are familiar with philosophy.

    The True World

    Nary a sigh nor a whisper,
    Just the cold flicker,
    The self sustaining light.

    A change in the shallow routine,
    The spell, broken.
    Beautiful things, previously unseen,
    An enduring token.

    The colour, the joy,
    Of new found freedom.
    No wish to destroy,
    The vast expansive kingdom.

    Changing tides.
    Darkened skies.
    Rough Rides.
    Tortured cries.

    A world torn asunder,
    The true nature revealed,
    Rule of mutany and plunder,
    Distant memories, a shield.

    The returning glory,
    The anguished arrival,
    The genuine revelry,
    Embracing the darkness.

    The revelation forgotten,
    The fearful withdrawal,
    Cold flickers and shadows,
    The true world.

    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    This last one is quite depressing but i feel like it has a lighter temperament towards the end.

    Descending Condition

    I...am eternal,
    yet i have no memory of my past life,
    Condemned to endless wandering,
    Across the misty shores of time.
    Ne'er a friend to take the weight,
    Or any one to cease,
    The soulless whispering in my head,
    Drowing my spirit with dark thoughts of murder.
    Frozen tears filled with emotive gleams,
    As the Winter takes up its icy grip,
    To forever hold me prisoner,
    But now i can be at peace,
    As the light and dark fade into one,
    And my body dies.
    Yet my soul remains pure and free...

    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    Hope you enjoy them. :)
    I'm going to be writing some happier ones in the future and as i'm taking an english degree at university soon, i'll hopefully be able to produce some masterpieces ;)

    Peace be with you all

    Divinitywolf
     
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    Polyanna, DW Hi :) :)
    yes I saw a lot of me in the poem Polyanna, I am actually very shy but hid behind many masks and tried to fit in. My nurses uniform was also my disguise though I know I'm a great nurse and when in uniform my communication skills were no problem but even now I am uncomfortable in social settings, a work in progress as I begin to value myself for the wonderful individual i truly am :D :p
    Divinity you poetry is wonderful and you'll be on booksheves in time to come :cool:
    sending you warm hugs and wishes for happy meditation :p
     
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    I'm also shy.
    Thanks :) I'm glad you like it.
    I really hope to publish some work in the future.

    Peace with you all.

    Divinitywolf
     
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    Your poems are truly thought provoking and touching. Thanks so much for sharing them with us and I look forward to hearing your new ones. I'm so pleased you are becoming more confident and happy. I'm sure you will go far Divinitywolf and you have a great asset with regular meditation.

    “No great work has ever been produced except after a long interval of still and musing meditation" ~ Walter Bagehot

    What really stirs you up inside, what you feel passionate about, may be what you should just write about and then your idea for a book will present itself.

    And I totally agree with you twinkletoes, you are a work in progress. Keep progressing towards your dream and live the life you are imagining. Happiness and joy to you both :) :) :)
     
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    Thank You so much.
    Your words mean a lot to me and ever compliment i recieve boosts my confidence just that little bit more.
    I love writing and i hope to share more of my works with you when i produce them.
    :)
    Peace be with you.
    Divinitywolf
     
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    hello, pollyana, divinitywolf, twinkletoes,

    i love reading poems too, it makes me more inspired and feel too much hope..
    you are very talented devinitywolf, hope you could post more of your work, we would be glad reading it.;-)

    i was stricken too by the poem presented by pollyana. it is describing who i am as of the moment. it's like having a disease that i wanted to eradicate from my whole being...
    and i am currently on the first step of the healing my self..through meditation and the LOA..

    this part of the poem..it's what i'd been wanting...

    I don't like hiding.
    I don't like playing superficial phony games.
    I want to stop playing them.
    I want to be genuine and spontaneous and me
    but you've got to help me.
    You've got to hold out your hand
    even when that's the last thing I seem to want.
    Only you can wipe away from my eyes
    the blank stare of the breathing dead.
    Only you can call me into aliveness.
    Each time you're kind, and gentle, and encouraging,
    each time you try to understand because you really care,
    my heart begins to grow wings--
    very small wings,
    very feeble wings,
    but wings!


    with god's help, and your help guys, i know we could be ourself, without mask, without pretentions

    lots of love,;-)
    grace
     

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