Hi all, may peace be upon you

[Teckniec]

Hi I'm a 22 year old male and I've only meditated only a few times really over the past two weeks but I've received results quickly. I have alot of interest in eastern spiritualism like the yogis and the monks. Actually I'm currently reading the book "autobiography of a yogi" Its a great book. As for my meditation I meditate lying down as I have tried the upright position several times and my back just burns. From what I've seen the only negative effect of lying down is that you might fall asleep which I have yet to.
What brings me here is the search for more knowledge, I am troubled as of late from an experience I had. I had been meditating for about 20 minutes or until I'd stop feeling the flow of energy and I would get up feeling great maybe even better then great. However the last time I meditated I got really deep really quick I saw a light that was kind of flirting with me as it got closer I would get a intense sensation that felt good and it would kind of go away and come back. At one point it shinned incredibility bright and I felt pure love and exstacy it was like nothing I've ever experience and it actually brought tears to my eyes and it overwhelmed me so I got out of it and my whole body was trembling. Even hours later I was feeling it. I met a girl that day whom had alot of similar interests as me (which is rare in my case) and I actually feel an interest in. So its a great day for me
The next day I felt a little mentally unstable like I had a loss of self or identity and when I try to sleep at night I keep seeing lights moving all around my vision and I feel as though I am moving. This has lead to two nights in a row of maybe 2 or 3 hours of sleep. This has also brought about anxiety that I had not felt in about 2 years. I have not tried meditation sense this has happened I am all of the sudden unsure of what I should do. Maybe I was bonding with the source and I was not ready so I am having this negative experience. Maybe I still have too much fear in my heart, maybe I was supposed to submit my will to god and the lights and movement are a call out to me. Maybe my subconscious mind and ego are relentless in letting go, I wish I knew, All I can think about is what if I kept going? I know I can't be the only one who has felt this way so I'm on the hunt for knowledge. I appreciate any advice you can give

[jada]

i think you should post this post on the 'mind body spirit' section, annd welcome

david

[Anglepen]

Wow, you certainly had a 'moment'!

You are probably aware that meditating, especially when using brainwave entrainment that uses lower frequencies can cause some emotional upheaval, this is mainly more prominent with low theta or Delta waves, but it can happen at any frequency as with entrainment you are helping your minds natural ability to relax and achieve that state and so your minds natural 'filing system' is accelerated.

Stick with it, or baqck off to higher frequencies for a bit, or just try meditating in silence with maybe just a mantra to focus upon.

[Teckniec]

Originally Posted by Anglepen

Wow, you certainly had a 'moment'!

You are probably aware that meditating, especially when using brainwave entrainment that uses lower frequencies can cause some emotional upheaval, this is mainly more prominent with low theta or Delta waves, but it can happen at any frequency as with entrainment you are helping your minds natural ability to relax and achieve that state and so your minds natural 'filing system' is accelerated.

Stick with it, or baqck off to higher frequencies for a bit, or just try meditating in silence with maybe just a mantra to focus upon.

Wow thanks actually I didn't post it but I was using Theta waves as I did it, I'm kind of curious as to how you knew. Ya what i was thinking is I should back off the theta waves a bit and try rain or ocean sounds. Silence is a luxury not granted in this house unfortunately. I still have not meditated but I'm going to today. Have you tried higher frequencies before?