I'm in Canada. I'll introduce myself as a meditator. I started reading about yoga, Zen, spirituality and all that sort of thing in my mid teens. Then I tried pot and mushrooms, and I guess after that I sort of wanted to find a way to experience a happy high (more or less like marijuana)
without drugs, which I felt should be possible.
I paid the money, took the little course and learned transcendental meditation. I found this approach to meditation to be deeply relaxing and very "centering". During meditation, I experienced the fading away of thoughts, feelings, and sensations via the effortless mantra technique.
I gave up the marijuana - but for a while, in the back of my mind, the marijuana high was the "model" that sort of made sense to me. So during my daily life I did experience something very much like it. I'm speaking of my waking hours, not during my TM-meditation sittings themselves.
In general, I definitely felt better about living. A lot of things bothered me less. And yet the kinds of situations in life that I’d always found
most difficult remained capable of rattling me. Inwardly (in those challenging circumstances) I’d experience either a reverberation of emotions or I'd go into a sort of mental fog.
Okay, I was glad not to have become habituated or addicted to any drugs. But my inner negative reactions still bothered. Then, some years ago, I suffered a broken leg in an accident. While mending I decided to take a course and an attunement in "Reiki" (a healing modality). I thought I was doing this for my leg, but it resulted in several other benefits: The attunement itself immediately and unexpectedly acted to clear away many of the emotional traces that had remained since my difficult childhood and adolescence — a muddy shame, sadness, and anger. This was silly emotional stuff, under the surface, that I'd never been able to really resolve.
In looking back on my life, I could see that in reaction to emotional pain, I had put up walls inside myself. The TM did not do away with those. But with my Reiki attunement, both the original pain/fear and the walls I'd made just dispersed. I felt more stable and more able during the day under all circumstances. Interestingly, about three times as many people as before acted like they really liked me!
I find that now I start out in the "good place" that a meditation sitting used to put me into. So I actually feel I now get
more out of meditating than I used to.
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