First of all, I would like to thank this forum and its members, because project meditation led me and motivated to me to start properly meditating and looking into spiritual life
I found this the most suitable section to post in the forum.
Now let me tell my story…
Meditation has benefited me in thousands of ways. I just finished my final high school exams very recently and had completely no worries or stress while doing them, while I was observing the room, I saw a huge amount of people being completely stressed, it just shows on their body language.
I used to get depressed frequently for a short amount of time, out of the blue, but it’s been a few months since that happened. When I get angry or stressed, it usually ends in a few minutes, after I decide to be conscious and observe it.
BUT there is one thing bothering me in my life situation now, although everything seems amazing:
I have mentioned in one of my threads that I do/study ‘’the pick up artist’’. If you search into it on google and youtube, and actually know about it, you will realize that a lot of the people go the ‘’unnatural’’ way where they use made up routines to ‘’pick up’’ the ‘’chick’’, but what I am aiming for is genuine interaction without using any routines or lines, which they would call ‘’natural’’ or ‘’direct’’ approach.
I was born and raised in Libya, and there, since I knew all my friends well, I knew that I was a great conversationalist, and was considered a ‘’ladies man.’’ If there was someone new to meet, I would have little problem having a conversation with him/her. Sometimes I would get anxious, or uncomfortable.
Right now I’m in Bosnia, and find it very hard meeting new people. I will come with complete honesty and say that I am quite scared to do so most of the time, and do not know how to overcome it. I am not able approach a girl who is on the street even though she checks me out and shows interest. I am only not afraid to approach if I know It’s full proof. I have actually forcefully approached a lot of girls and got rejected by the majority, but that still did not deal with my anxiety.
The main reason I decided to post this, is because I went with a friend to a salsa night, and our salsa teacher and a few other members were there. While we were there sitting and chatting (we are very new to salsa so are unable to dance with it), I was observing my teacher and the members, and wow, they just radiate positive social energy. One of the members was leading around 50 people in a dance, the other was open and talking to everyone. There were even girls giving me signals to approach, but I couldn’t. I know I am a good talker and can make people laugh, but in these occasions I can’t. Only sometimes I am very comfortable. It feels like I am water going through a pipe which is blocked, and I cannot come out and reach the surface and open up. This has been bothering me for a while. I even have anxiety approaching guys. I was just amazing by how those guys have extreme confidence.
Sometimes, I say to myself that my Bosnian language is a barrier, because I am not good at it. But realistically that’s just an excuse and has nothing to do with it.
Well, social life is what is really bothering me right now. I could have posted this on a pickup artist forum but I believe people here will be of more help then they would.
IF YOU ARE TOO LAZY TO READ AND WANT A VERY SHORT VERSION
I am scared to open up and talk freely and openly to people I just meet, even though I am quite a good confident talker with people I know.
Hmmm... This just got me thinking. I am not afraid to talk to people who I see ''lower'' than me (im not sure if thats the word), like nerds and etc.
Thank you for reading