When we awaken from a deep sleep, as we open our eyes, we look and asses our situation. We enter the thought stream; we are presented with thoughts and sensations that build a story of where we are and of our wellbeing.
It may seem like your life, just shows up in front of you exactly the way it is. It seems as if you are seeing your present situation objectively, as if life exists in a certain way, as “my wonderful life” or “my dreadful life.” If on awakening from deep sleep you experience positive or negative emotions, it seems like life causes them because of a sense that life exists out there objectively.
Upon closer look, this is not what is happening. Notice the viewpoints that appear when your life appears. All sorts of memories are placed over your present life, perhaps a memory of a painful thing that happened yesterday. And those memories often arise in conjunction with certain emotions. Past thoughts often carry resentment, anger, or sadness. Or maybe the thought of the dreadful meeting with so-and-so later in the day will appear, Present or future thoughts often carry anger, frustration, sometimes fear or anxiety.
So what do you really experience when you awaken from a deep sleep and see your life. You experience thoughts, emotions, and sensations that seem to point to an actual, separate life out there. Now go try to find that actual life. Every time you look, you find a thought here, an emotion there, or a sensation there and these appearances are coloured by the ego. In other words, what your life is depends on the story you tell about it. You paint your life in every moment. There is no objectively existing separate life that you can experience outside of your stories. It may really seem like there is some physical life existing outside of all thoughts, emotions, and sensations, but look more closely. Can you walk up to your life and touch it? Does your actual life whisper to you, “I am your life” It is only a thought (ego)that does that.
This may seem emotionless at first. You cannot find your life as being out there at all.
So who/what, is your life?
What is really here?
But if you were to let go of those questions and dive deeply into your actual experience, you open yourself up to intimacy of a completely new kind, a seamless unconditional experience. The world, as you experience it, is none other than what you are. Your stories of your life remain, yet no matter how good or bad they are, they appear seamlessly within awareness. There is nothing more intimate and loving than that. When you are at one with your life, the capacity for being is forever present. And with this awareness comes genuine love for all life.