Hello everyone!
A little background information:
For as long as I can remember, I've had these, well, seizures. Sometimes when I'm drawing intensely, or having philosophical debate, a weird thing happens to my senses. The first symptom, if you will, is that my vision zooms out, in that everything looks really ridiculously small. My hand looks like it's a only a few millimeters long, and a 1.5 liter soda bottle about 1-2 centimeters in lenght. My sense of scale (especially with flat images) also greatly diminishes due to this.
Sometimes with this impairing of vision there's an impairing of the sense of touch. With the inside of my mouth, and my fingers (this is pronounced when I'm typing on a keyboard) I sense a feeling of pointyness/sharpness and a softness/numbness at the same time!
The previous 'symptoms' aren't really negative, just weird, mostly. What sometimes follows, however, isn't as comfortable.
The third stage of this is that my brain appears to overload, and everything I do happens in fast forward (like it was happening 100 times within the same time span) and there's this chaos of experiences in my head. It's like a sensory overload, but with the tiniest amount of information that keeps on looping. This usually stops if I stop doing what I'm doing.
Last night, however was different in that I wasn't doing anything, and my mind kept looping! So I was stuck in looking at the wall with my mouth open, my brain swirling in chaos. It was difficult to start any thought process or form any words, the feeling was very much like a speechless state after witnessing something beautiful.
I got myself up the chair and went to the kitchen to make some sandwiches but my mind kept spinning and it was really uncomfortable. I felt like I was going nuts.
Even after all the symptoms had gone away, I felt changed inside, like I was slightly drunk, or in some altered state of consciousness. Before all of this happened, I was at a party, but didn't consume any alcohol, only a few energy drinks.
Alsooo... when I came home and sat in front of my computer, but before the previously mentioned happened, I had feeling of being watched, like there was a face right in front of my face, looking at me. As if a presence was in the room with me. As I closed my eyes and breathed consciously a few times, I felt peaceful inside. This presence, however, subsided as the sense impairment started pouring in.
Can anyone relate to any of this? I've talked about this to a lot of people and no-one I've ever met has had anything like this happen to them.
My sense-altering seizure
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