Thanks for the recommended reading, Josh. Nice to have the nuts and bolts without the dogma.
Gus you wrote: "If anyone else has been trying to change to this type meditation; I'd love some feedback. If anyone has any extended experience; pointers would be wonderful."
I don't claim to be an expert - I'm walking my path the best way I can - but it's very important to me. It's really the only thing that has fascinated me throughout the 63 years of my being in this body. I've searched through many ways and have done vipassana meditation extensively and intensively. Here are some thoughts that I have on the subject, for what it's worth.
The key for me is to distinguish concentration from awareness. This book
Mindfulness in Plain English has a couple of chapters, 13 and 14 which talks about that. And of course Eckhart Tolle has written several books on the subject. They use concentration in the process of witnessing whatever's happening - thoughts, sensations, sounds...and hopefully in that witnessing, we can allow the phenomena to pass by without getting caught by them. However, if you're like me with an active mind, this can be difficult, especially if there's lots going on in your life!
This weekend, I discovered another layer to all this and I'm really finding this new piece helpful. I took a workshop with an advaita master named Mooji who tells us to start inquiring about who or what is doing the witnessing. You have a thought and by noticing that it's arisen, you witness it, knowing that it's your mind thinking. Then you inquire, "who is doing that?" Answer, it's "me." But "who is that "me"? Or what?" Seeing that there's something apart from the mind, you notice that there's more to you. But where does this "me" come from? Somehow there's this identity that we have, thinking it's who we are. Yet, by being aware of it, we notice that there must be something more to ourselves than our identifying with the body/mind. We cling to this "me" but we can step back from it and witness it as well. When we discover this ultimate observer, we realize it's just pure consciousness. It is formless, without attributes, neutral, doesn't do anything but just "be." In it, we are joined with all that is. It's the source.
I know that's a very wordy attempt to describe something that is so elegant and simple and beautiful. Being there with someone who is coming from that vibration made it possible for me to enter that ultimate state, however briefly, so that now in meditation, if thoughts come I can step back to notice that it's the me identifying with them and I can step back to the much more fundamental Self that precedes all of that. The thoughts either stop, or slow down, and I just witness, there's a thought, here's another one, the body is breathing, there's a sound ...without identifying with any of it. Insight, which is what "vipassana" means, arises because we see that it's all just phenomena, arising and passing away. Some of it is enticing, some is not and we start to notice the craving and aversion that the pesonality has to that. Behind it all, like the depth of the ocean, is the witnessing, just pure being. It's out of that that peace comes.
I suppose what I'm saying is that we need some concentration but we also need to develop wisdom about the nature of existence - the body/mind, our identifying with "me, myself and I".
You clearly have already developed capacity to concentrate, so kudos to you. How you use that concentration can bring great insight and spiritual growth. And I think that you can trust yourself to know how to proceed. I love the advaita teaching that we are ALREADY pure being. It's there inside of us, obscured by our focusing exclusively on our thinking mind and feelings. You've said that you're a long time meditator so you already have the yearning for spiritual truth. There's no question that you're on your way.
Wishing you peace
Bhavya


Btw, sitting on the floor is great if you can, but my meditations are much better now than when I was a young un' looking great on my cushion. As long as the spine is straight, what does it matter? We're moving
beyond all of that