INTENSE and scary experience

[bm1988]

Hey all beautiful people!!

I'd like to share a meditation experience I've been having....while in the laying down corpse postion I can really get to spaces where I feel my energy centers glowing and moving. I can eventually move this energy to higher chakras in the third eye and crown of head area. When the energy reaches my crown area it feels like the top of my head opens up and a very strong pressure of energy is coming out the top like a hose. As this is happening, the rest of my body feels like an ocean....no longer a rigid physical structure....kind of a blissful numbness.

At this point I start to feel like a very powerful intense pressure and energy is moving slowly across my forehead and this is where I start to back off.. Up to that point I am letting everything flow and enjoying the blissful awareness,...but when i start to feel that on my brain area, it feels like if I let that happen and flow, I will no longer feel a physical body anymore. Like the pressure moving across my head is making my brain feel numb and almost like blacking out?? This feeling scares me a little and makes it so I cut off the feeling with fear instead of letting it flow.

I feel like if I did let it flow I would become the vast moment (not in a physical body anymore). The pressure and energy in this area is very intense and scary and I'm wondering if i should let it flow or be concerned. any thoughts??? thank you!!

[Hazelkay]

'I feel like if I did let it flow'

This is not under your control - it is flowing - the question is - are you ready to be aware of it?

Maybe someone else has a different opinion but I think the fear could be a natural barrier to your awareness until you are ready to experience it.

The physical body as we experience it has no reality - it is an illusion borne of unimaginably rapid combustion and vibration of energy - the vast proportion of this visible entity is just space.

The ego likes to think that each manifestation of this energy is a unique product - me - awareness of this space destroys this illusion.

It is an adventure, a journey within that requires courage, but also wisdom to know our own present moment limitations.

I don't know if this makes sense to you - others may have a different take which sits easier with you.

did my best
peace and joy

[Edwin]

It had allready become obvious to me from previous posts that you "got it" Hazel . Your posts shine in insight and at the same time simplicity in explaining that which can't be properly explained.

There is no disputing what you said, I share your insight.

However...

I consider the discovery of the truth a journey, and only rarely do people skip the entire journey and land at the endpoint at once.
Those are only a few fortunate ones. The Buddha, Tolle, you know, the greater teachers.

For everybody else, it is a road with many crossroads, and you have to take one crossroad at a time, in the right order, if you want to progress to a clear understanding of where you will end.
Now if a friend called you to say that he is halfway there to meet up with you, but has gotten a bit lost, maybe taken a wrong turn somewhere, the first question you will probably ask is "where are you now" ?
Because going over the entire trip step by step will take very long, and just giving the directions to which way to turn for only the last crossroad is quite pointless, and will only confuse your friend even more, you have to know where he is now, and from there you can give directions towards his next turn.

When reading back BM1988's story, it seems to me that he is lost somewhere in the middle .

Even tho the experience is a profound one, judging from your post Bm1988, your toughts and imagination are trying to explain an experience that can't be explained by mind.
Just let it flow, nothing can happen to you. Just observe the sensation, think of yourself as a reporter, documenting what is going on in that moment, without trying to participate in it. You don't have to be scared to lose control, like Hazel said: control is an illusion.
That control was never there, but that fact just became more obvious when you entered that state, and the reaction of the mind was panick, as it wants to believe in the illusion of "being in control".
Just settle in it for a while, try to feel comfortable in it.

It's just a ride

[Hazelkay]

lovely post Edwin - nice analogy - thank you

[Quantamama]

My most effective position for meditation is corpse pose, too. I've experienced this sense of fluidity and energy flowing from my crown chakra. I'm not sure about the pressure in the forehead; really the most I've gotten is tingles and that sense of numbness you mentioned.

I remember feeling a bit of fear, like standing on a high diving board at these moments. I think Hazel could be right "the fear could be a natural barrier to your awareness until you are ready to experience it." You'll jump when you're ready.

[Edwin]

YouTube - Bill Hicks: What is the point to Life

it's just a ride

[Mr Monkey]

Quality clip, thanks for posting