The void threshold
Whenever I meditate, I end up in a nice quiet state where there is not sound or thoughts and its very pleasant. But I have become too comfortable with this level of meditation and been wanting to enter I higher level of self awareness or anything deeper in anyway (without projecting). When im in the state I often detect some kind of boundary which I can cross to get to the next level. Whenever I try to cross this its almost like theres nothing on the other side and its impossible for me to exist over there and its like im a program and I crashed and restarted many times. You may think im speaking of the sometimes scary jump into space when projecting, but I have been projecting for awhile and its the complete opposite of that. I am aware of whats on the other side and where im going but when I get there there is nothing and I have to go back. The feeling is not the usual feeling like "im going to lose myself and I should go back", its more of a "If I stay here I will cease to exist" and a bit of "I don't belong out here at all". Even though im not going anywhere im just focusing inwards.
Anyways trying to relax without projecting and this is my problem, any ideas?
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