Beginner to meditation; interesting experiences lately, please help
Hi,
I have been practicing mediation for the past month and I'm glad to say that it has improved my life. I find that I am calmer, more collected and my concentration has increased considerably. As a result of this state, I am also turning into a more compassionate and understanding individual. It is an amazing way to learn more about yourself, and I hope you are making progress too. I have been having an unusual experience for the past week now though and I would appreciate it if you could help me understand it better.
I usually meditate after drinking tulsi tea upon waking up for roundabout 30 mins. I notice that it usually progresses in stages. At first, I find myself having to acknowledge thoughts more frequently, and returning so to speak to a clearer, focused mind. I usually try not to focus on anything, I just try to be aware of my mind. In some time, I then find myself shifting to a lower gear if you will. I feel very calm and I feel safe to just be, with no worry about being clear minded, as I slowly let myself go. Eventually, I get into a stage where I have lost basically a sense of knowing, a connection to the world. This is where it gets difficult to explain, and where the unusual experience begins.
In order to explain this phenomenon, I will have to tell you about an injury I sustained to the head when I was a kid. It was quite clumsy of me, so I'll spare myself the embarrassment of recreating it for you. Long story short, I hit my head on the ground and I think I experienced some kind of shock. I was in this state where I lost a sense of time and space. I remember it very clearly, in fact, I think I'm almost recreating that emotion when I'm in this meditative state. As soon as the injury happened, I remember that in that moment, I could not feel my body, or speak. In fact, during the entire episode, I had no idea that there was something such as a body. I was aware however of my environment, I could hear two people talking about who I was and how to get me to my parents as I was lying on the ground. I just felt like I had lost connection to the world, but while this was happening, I was not aware that there was a notion like that in the first place. I could not speak as this was happening, and I did not understand the commotion around me. Apparently, I had blood all over me, but I had the most pleasant smile on my face, right up until the time the doctor put me under and put stitches on my head.
When I get into the final stage of my meditation, I experience something of the sort, but not so dissociated, or intense. I do enjoy it, but it is increasing in intensity, and how quickly I attain that stage. Lately, once I'm done, I have been feeling very expensed. The only physical element I can describe is that, it feels like a huge rush of blood to the front of my brain. I'm not sure what to make of it. I'm quite sure it is safe, but I don't want to scare myself, as sometimes I have. I was wondering if anybody out there has had a similar experience. I would really appreciate your input.
Best to all. I hope to get some comments. Keep working hard.. and beware of badminton ;p
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