Originally Posted by flossie
Hi Edwin
I am not sure if you are on holiday or not yet. I think I may be being a little dumb but I copied your instructions, took them home, then in a quiet moment read them, then read them again and finally read them once more and to be honest I have no clue what I am supposed to be doing. Do I do this all the time during the day, do I do it whilst I am meditating. You couldnt do an idiots guide could you? I would be very grateful.
thanks a lot
April
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Going on holiday tomorrow

you just caught me.
It is something you can do in meditation, which is easyer, and/or in daily life, which is life changing.
The most important thing to remember is that thoughts and feelings that occur, occur in conciousness. You can become aware of that, by observing them.
The next exercise is based on Douglas Harding's experiment:
Suppose you have a boulder in your garden.
You are looking at it, and outside, it is grey.
You would like to know what it looks like inside. But you can't.
So, in the end, you cut it in half. But, instead of looking at the inside of the boulder, you are looking at the outside of 2 boulders. So, you split them in half again. Still only the outside.
You keep chipping away, until you have a bag of sand. And you can still keep chipping that into smaller pieces. Until you arrive at the atom. But is that the inside of the boulder ? What boulder ?
Now look at your body. Your hands and feet. Is that really yours ? You are inclined to say "yes". But you look at your hands from the outside. You can't look inside, or "be" inside it. You have control over them, so you say "my hand" or "My foot".
But essentially, what is the difference between the empty glass on the table that your hand is resting next ? They are both just objects, made out of atoms. Ok, you will know the difference when you hit them with a hammer, but that is a different story.
Now follow your hands and feet up, your legs and arms, shoulder and body, all can be observed from the outside. It is a collection of atoms. An object.
follow them up. Now you see only a hint of a nose, the edges of the eyesockets maybe... But then, you only notice the place from where you are seeing. The eye itself. The object ends, and perception begins. The perception is subjective, you can describe what it is like, but essentially only you can experience what you are experiencing.
Can you look deeper ? Go back further. All you can experience, is nothingness right ? There is nothing behind the eyes, because this is the realm of the Self. Try to just see in. All you have been seeing so far is the outside of objects. But the one seeing, you, is not an object. We have accepted always that we are there. But never taken the trouble of trying to investigate the looker.
Try to find out who you really are. Try to observe the self. As long as you see yourself, it can't be you. If you are looking into a seeming abyss, unable to see yourself, that is you.
If you succeed in this, go back to my other exercise and try it again.