Taking a step into the world of our Being

[Coenrad Morgan]

Originally Posted by angelaIBSH

When we meditate, we are able to enter the world of our Beings and transcend physical boundaries. Is our ego mind shut off during meditation due to the strong bond and interconnection between our Being and Universal Being? Or are we simply able to develop awareness for the existence of an inner Being to step our ego minds?

This is something I have battled with, the frontal cortex of the brain is the home of our identity model and reasoning faculty, it is an incredible tool, we can use it to grow organic mushrooms or the kind North Korea is playing with, it is a tool of dualism, me and them, us and them, my team and the other team. It is also a tool strongly based on self worth, the "ego" - or better described as Eckhart does as your collection of memories and thoughts that make up your story and can be negative or possitive, anywhere between, I , we, my team SUCK!!! to I, we, my team are the GREATEST!!!

I dont believe that the ego goes away during meditation, you still know that you, the meatsuit, that you like or dislike with or without all the degrees and diploma's on the wall is sitting here meditating, there is still dualism present here, just that you seek an other you....still seperation. What I do feel is that the charge is taken away from the ego, its inactive leading to deeper meditation, as proof of this, try and think of someone or something you dislike and you pop straight out of the meditative state.

At some point one does experience "bliss" or oneness with it all and then, yes, I believe one has for a fleeting moment transcended the "self" or ego or identity construct but these moments are fleeting for most of us.

I like the Chinese internal martial arts (tai chi etc) term of progression towards ones goal, they refer to it as "cultivation" and I think here is the key, to cultivate the "beingness" aspect of the self to a point where you more strongly identify with it than the outer construct of ME, MY NAME, MY CAR, MY POSSITION IN SOCIETY....dualism and through cultivation simply try to be as Dr Wayne Dyer puts it, "better than I used to be", the martial arts uses a belt colour system of progression, so too does one need to realize that its about progression and not a sudden, "okay, I'm meditating, the ego is gone, I am enlightened....Michael, hand me my black meditation cushion......please" process.

At some point one should have cultivated this "Beingness" to a point where we tend to think in terms of US, WE, THE PlANET, ALL LIFE.....the ego will always be there to defend your territory or stand up for you in a meeting or court room but it will be a part time aspect of mind, once used, set aside in favour of a return to being, a mindset free from dualistic thinking which include judgement of oneself or others. In the martial arts, the apex of skill is to do the right thing at the right time without conscious thought, if you try and think about it, it all goes to pieces and you wind up in a heap on the floor, this state of "no mind" is achieved by dissiplined and focussed repetition, so to is it with the spiritual progression, hours of what seems to be meaningless repetition of a mantra and or Lifeflow, somedays it just doesnt work, some days its great, yet slowly one notices a shift from how you used to be and that the you you are and the you you where feel different, and then one day the whole "you" issue just seems unimportant....

Father Thomas Keating best discribes this process of "cultivation" which is GREATLY enhanced by meditation - almost essentialy so - in the movie "ONE".

“The beginning of the spiritual journey is, the realization, not just the information, but a real interior conviction that there is a higher power, or God, or, to make it as easy as possible for everybody, that there is an Other, Capital “O”.

Second step, try to become the Other, still a capital “O”. And finally, the realization that there is no Other, you and the other are ONE, always have been, always will be, you just think that you aren’t”

I believe, here in lies the answer, the realization that there is NO OTHER and thus the ego dissolves as there is no logical reason for its existance, not by way of force - "out ego, out....bad ego!!!....sit, stay!!!" but rather a realization of, as eckhart often says, of what is false in you, in so doing, once this realisation is a true inner conviction, the ego naturaly and quietly goes.

As for the process, each to his own, repetitive meditation though, is a strong tool for that cultivation of what is true in you and ultimately, is you and paradoxicaly me, the tree outside and all else, thus the true you is everywhere....isnt you but everything.....and at this point, you becomes irrelevant.

[Edwin]

Hi Coenrad !

Great to hear from you again.

It's true, the ego doesn't disappear just like that. There will always be thoughts.
They come up uncontrollably. We don't even actively think, we watch thoughts come up, like I said before.

Most of the time, just watching is enough. Sometimes you will feel an urge to act. Or not.

I like that quote from the movie "One".

The search for the Self is a journey inward so that means that at the very core of you, the basis, that is where the Self is. Ergo, that is in which everything else originates. Thoughts, images, sounds, touch, feelings...

Great to hear from you again

[Bhavya]

Wow, Edwin, Angela, Coenrad, this certainly is an interesting discussion.
Here are some thoughts that came to mind when I read this thread:

Ego-mind isn't just negative (or positive for that matter.) It's simply a tool that the Being has to exist in the world of duality as you all may have said.

A question to ponder is whether we have to purify the mind in order to realize that we are Being or Self on an ongoing basis. Mooji says no. We just have to move beyond identifying with ego-mind. It'll always be there, available, but it won't run the show.

But Sri Ramana Maharishi points out that Inquiry is really only suitable for 'ripe souls' whatever that may mean to you. It's certainly true that we have to reach the point where the mind is still enough in order to do the inquiry, "Who am I?" Otherwise the mind will be assailed with wayward thoughts or sleep. (from The Spiritual Teachings of Ramana Maharshi, Shambala Classics, a really excellent book.) This we get through concentration practices by focusing on mantra or breath and using LF, plus ethical behaviour which Buddhists say is essential for achieving concentration.

If you think that Self-Inquiry is your path, there's another practice that accompanies "Who am I" that hasn't been mentioned. It is to remember "I'm not the doer." Being or Consciousness is using this form (body/mind) in the play of duality. When we remember that, identification with ego gets further eroded because with this thought comes "How does consciousness want to move through this situation" instead of I want this...my way or the highway, etc! And if we do something great, we know that we were only the instrument (though it's great to know that you were clear enough to let it flow through you!)

This forum is great for presenting the vast array of practices available to us. Thanks to all of you who so generously share your thoughts and experience. It's all a process of evolution, no two paths are the same, but eventually we'll all get there. Inshallah

Though of course we are already that!

Bhavya

[Fuzzy]

Apologies for coming to this discussion late and for picking up such an early post but I just have to make a comment or two about it.

Originally Posted by Edwin

Lately, and I think this is due to Tolle's work, the word "ego" seems to become a bit too heavy in it's daily use.

"that is just the the ego talking", or how about this one " I am struggling with the ego ".
I'm sorry, but the word "ego" should be used only in the sense that Tolle wants it described, not as a concept, but as a short version of this description: " The collection of thoughts and memories gathered and remembered during the entire cause of your life up to now, that lead to a false believe of who you are ".

That is all the ego is, the ego as a concept doesn't exist. There is no ego-bone, or the ego is not part of a certain part of the brain...
" Ah, and when doing a brainscan, that there, smashed between the temporal lobe and the anterior commisure is the ego-lobe"
It is simply a collection of thoughts that feeds itself.
This collection is highly deciptive. It takes time to realise that thoughts, or collections of thoughts like the word "ego" points to, can only appear in consiousness. The Self is endless and boundryless, it has no beginning and no end. In this field of no-thingness, thoughts can appear. The ego can appear. Since thoughts appear in the Self, thoughts can mislead themselves into the belief that thoughts ARE the Self.
Just to show how deceptive the "ego" is....

I wrote this a few sentences ago.
Think about that second sentence...
Who is struggling with the ego ?
Being, the Self or whatever name we can think of ( or concept we try to make of something that can't be conceptualised ) doesn't struggle. It simply Is. It is only consiousness in the Now.
So, the "I" that is "struggling with the ego"... If it is not the Self, than it is the "ego" struggling with the ego...
And we just proved that the ego doesn't really exist, it's just a collection of thoughts.

So, a non-existing ego is struggling with the non-existant ego...

Doesn't make sense now does it ?

This is why it is so important to let go of thoughts, why we need to practice meditation at first, and later on, to try to hold on to that state of no-thought outside of meditation. Without thoughts, when we just Are, when we See without judgement, living in everyday life without distractions from the mind... Think of the peace, the wonderfull bliss of performing seemingly boring tasks when " I am bored " is suddenly replaced by " I Am ".
Without thoughts about boredom or a false sense of I, Love and Bliss come out of the simplest tasks. Imagine feeling that feeling of bliss you allready know from meditation while doing the dishes, sweeping the porch, cleaning the toilet, making love, posting on this forum... But I get carried away.

Bottom line is to realise that the ego is thoughts, and thoughts keep you away from fully experiencing the moment, the only moment that is real, the eternal "Now".

This post, Edwin, has had SUCH a profound impact on me - I have read this thread several times now and I keep being drawn back to this post. Each time I do it is almost as if a bell were being struck somewhere deep within me - a deep resonating sound which echoes throughout me. It is not heavy or unpleasant but it is almost as if something (a truth) is being deeply embedded within me (or perhaps, more accurately, something is being awoken deep within me and I am now conscious of it).
There is profound truth in what you have written and I want to thank you for stopping me in my tracks - I think something wonderful has been planted and I am excited to see what happens next.

[islovin]

Maybe I am missing something.

In my humble opinion....Thoughts DO exist. Thoughts are energy.

A thought can be measured in brainwave activity. In the movie "What the bleep do we know?" this point is illustrated as follows: It shows a person staring at a candle. The tester measures the brainwave activity. Then the tester asks the person to close their eyes and picture the candle in their mind and to think only of that candle....The brainwaves are again measured. The exact same brainwave activity is observed. Now granted I have not personally done this test to measure brainwave activity so I am only believing what I was shown in a movie...but I am going to assume that they are presenting data correctly.

Our memories exist...our collection of thoughts and memories... DO SERVE us. We learn and grow in relation to our past experiences. The conscious decisions we make is what keeps us in the moment. We need to be awake and alert and able to see, feel and hear the universal consciousness in the now. We can not repress or control our thoughts or our feelings...We can acknowledge and be aware of them and CHOOSE to either dwell on them or let them go.

How else would the telephone have been invented?

Why else are we practicing brainwave entrainment to create whole brain "thinking"?

Even so called "bad thoughts" have their place in teaching us and allowing us to CHOOSE how we want to act on these thoughts. It is up to us to be open enough to the collective consciousness on how to better serve us and the greater good by the actions we take regarding our thoughts in the "now".

So in my humble opinion it is not that the mind and its thoughts "don't exist" it is that we need to choose what we want to focus the mind and its thoughts on. And that meditation trains us to focus our minds to hopefully... better serve us and the greater good.

And practice makes this easier to do.

[Edwin]

Some very profound and deeply moving reply's made by Ta Tsu Wa and Bhavya seem to have been lost after the forum was down

I had even saved a reply on Ta Tsu Wa's post on my pc. Did you guys happen to save it ?

@ Fuzzy
I am happy to have moved you. Maybe you can join us in our group meditation tomorrow ?

@ Islovin
Apparently I was not clear at what I tried to bring across.
I will ask you a series of questions now, these are not critisism !!! I am interested to see where my message was transformed into yours.

In my humble opinion....Thoughts DO exist. Thoughts are energy.

A thought can be measured in brainwave activity. In the movie "What the bleep do we know?" this point is illustrated as follows: It shows a person staring at a candle. The tester measures the brainwave activity. Then the tester asks the person to close their eyes and picture the candle in their mind and to think only of that candle....The brainwaves are again measured. The exact same brainwave activity is observed. Now granted I have not personally done this test to measure brainwave activity so I am only believing what I was shown in a movie...but I am going to assume that they are presenting data correctly.

I am pretty sure I never said that thoughts don't exist

We can not repress or control our thoughts or our feelings

Exactly ! Did I say you could ?

Even so called "bad thoughts" have their place in teaching us and allowing us to CHOOSE how we want to act on these thoughts. It is up to us to be open enough to the collective consciousness on how to better serve us and the greater good by the actions we take regarding our thoughts in the "now".

That is exactly why I said it is important to only observe the thoughts. I never said that you have to fight them, or judge them, discard them. Just watch them ! From the Self !
Life unfolds wether we think about it or not. We react, wether we think about it or not. Not from thought, but from pure consiousness itself ! But before you can see that, you have to let go of your attachment to thought, memory or thoughts of the future. You don't have to take actions to make them go away, you just have to see that they are not you, just something happening in you. Of course you are free to react to thoughts. Just don't let thought pull your attention into it.

One of my posts here was lost in the server crash, I will ask you the same question:

Islovin, I can tell from your reaction that you are a very dishonest person.

this is an example, it is not how I think of you at all.
If I were to tell you this, you would probably say something along the line of:

"That is soooo untrue, I am in fact very honest, you see, just the other day I told this guy at the shop that he gave me too much change, and blabla "

You are an honest person. I see.

So, when you are reading a novel, you are being honest. When you are daydreaming, you are still very busy being honest. When you are visiting the bathroom, you are doing that in your most honest way.
Of course, when asleep, in between dreams, you are still being honest.

Hm. This does not seem to be the case. I don't have to constantly be honest, because I am also not dishonest.

My judgement of you being honest was a thought from my mind.
You took the thought personal. Your "I" felt attacked in the image it had of itself. It immediately tried to make that image into one that felt more comfortable, more of a positive view of the "I".

But as I demonstrated, this view, this image, was made from a thought. The nature of thought is that it comes up, it goes away. It is not constantly there. That would even be very harmfull to how you lead your life. You would crash into a tree with your car because you weren't paying attention to the road, just this one constant thought.
This is why it can only repeat itself. It can't "be" you.

If you let go of the need to judge the thought, but to realise that the thought isn't you, can't describe you, who you are, ever because you are infinately bigger and more beautifull than the mind can ever comprehend ( not a compliment, a fact ! ) makes you realise that there is another I observing that thought
Who is that observer ?

Try to find it ! Where is the observer !

Can you form an image of it ?

Try !

You can't, can you ?
This is the viewer, the observer, the timeless self. It is the source of your consiousness, it IS consiousness. Without it, you would not exist. Your perception of the world would not exist. Intelligence makes you assume that the world won't end when you die, but who knows for sure ? You can only be sure that YOU, that observer, is observing the world directly around you. You can't observe the world from other people's eye's.

It is shapeless. A concept your mind can't process. Shapeless means endless. No beginning, no end. Where does your Self stop ?
this is the space in which everything appears, and which the Self observes. This can be the images of a tree projected in your eye, but also a thought. Everything is watched by the Self.

[GilesC]

Originally Posted by Edwin

Some very profound and deeply moving reply's made by Ta Tsu Wa and Bhavya seem to have been lost after the forum was down

I had even saved a reply on Ta Tsu Wa's post on my pc. Did you guys happen to save it ?

Where did my replies go?
I hadn't saved what I'd written and I'm not sure I can find the time, just yet, to re-write it all.

*sigh* these things happen.

Hugs

Giles

[Edwin]

That's right, I have a reply to your post saved as well :| damn and we were hitting the right spot !

Too bad that brilliance can never be duplicated

[islovin]

Edwin,

Don't say that... all is not lost....it will all come back...brilliance happens over and over again...

I was responding to the following concept

EGO = MIND = collection of thougths and memories

I think you said that there is no "egolobe" in the brain or something like that.

But the ego or the "active mind" can be measured through brainwaves so because there are brainwaves then ..... our ego or our mind or our collection of thoughts and memories do exist.

I agree our collection of thoughts and memories are stories that our mind creates and our mind creates these stories based on our own individual experiences....

I also believe in having attachments ...I choose to be attached to a thought, a belief, a thing, an event, a person or whatever ...if I am conscious and understand all of the consequences of that attachment...then I will hopefully only choose attachments that will serve me and the greater good.

[Coenrad Morgan]

I was so impressed with this that I cut and paste it and have since mailed it to my dearest one.......IT REALLY puts into focus the balance, the mix and the ultimate objective of it all, I AM SO GRATEFUL to Ta Tsu Wa for it and am glad I saved it as something to be treasured and it can thus be re-shared (Ta Tsu Wa's permision pending)

"In circles of "spiritual growth", Ego often gets short shrift. It's looked upon as something undesirable, to be gotten rid of ASAP. This seems a very short-sighted course of action. Ego is a function of the "self" (lower case S). It incorporates abilities and characterists such as the ability to think and to experience Individuality.
What most Ego bashers are really saying is, "Self = good, self = bad". Unity is the goal, Duality is something to be overcome and discarded ASAP. This does not square well with most ancient spiritual accounts of original creation. Whether it be Taoist, Judaism, Christiantiy (especially the Gnostic variety,) Buddhism, Native American and other regional, indigenous people belief systems, or most other spiritual traditions you could think of, they all tell similar stories about how creation got started.
There is One, which differentiates Itself internally into many, which learn to recognize themselves as bits of the One again in addition to their individual natures. Let me share with you my experience of this whole process.
There exists an Undifferentiated Totality. Some traditions express it in anthropomorphic concepts, others in very impersonal terms. Call this, Unity or Totality. Unity has no peer since it encompasses all that is, all that can ever be, as well as all that cannot ever be in one, homegenous mode of existence.
Unity realizes if there were others that could exist in relational form, Unity would know them and experience the joy of their interactions, and the perfection of Unity would thereby be increased.
So Unity subdivides or compartmentalizes Itself giving rise to individual structures that can now relate to each other. Call these Individualities.
Initially, all the units of Individuality are still very much aware of their oneness with Unity. This is so much the case that the experience of their own individuality remains very limited at best if they could even experience it at all. Since there can never be anything that is truly outside of the Totality, the only way to grant the Individualities a true sense of being an individual is by having them adopt some scheme of forgetfulness; a sort of amnesia, if you will. Under those circumstances, though they are not outside of Totality, they have forgotten this, and to them it feels as if they are outside. The feeling is so genuine that for all practical purposes it might as well be literally true. In any event, with this veil of forgetfulness drawn over them, the Individualities can now truly experience what it would be like to be absolutely separate and independent.

Unity uses these Individualities something like we use our five senses. It sees through them. It hears through them. It shares all of the relational experiences they have through them as if they were Its own, in a way It could not have done before initiating the process of Its own subdivision.
This is the first half of a great circle. For full joy to be experienced however, the circle must be completed. This necessitates the Individualities relearning through their own experiences what it is to be identified with Unity, similar to the way they were in their beginning. The difference is that this time, when this process is completed, they will possess not only the experience of complete Unity, but will also take with them the experience of Individuality. Both experiences will exist and be appreciated fully at one and the same time.
In this final state Unity experiences relationship through the Individualities just as they experience it. Unity increases by the joy of the collective experiences of all Individualities. Each Individuality increases its joy by its own experiences. As each Individuality advances and progresses towards and ultimately achieves a "reunification" (technically inaccurate word I know, but you get the point) with Unity, it then adds not only the joy of its own individual experiences to itself, but the joy of all other Individualities through its identification with the Totality/Unity. As the Individual increases in joy, the Unity increases in joy, and as the Unity increases in joy, the perfected Individuals further increase in joy. The process forms a circle or sphere that grows ever greater without limit or end.
This is what I am convinced is the basic nature of our existence based not only on study but on my own personal experiences (no pun intended.)
If this is correct it becomes quickly apparent that any attempt to annihilate the Ego or to abolish all Thought, extinguish the self (lower case S) etc., thwarts completing the circle of our existence. In the end it is not a case of either/or. I'm not either Unified or an Individual. I am both, and I am both at the same time. To cling to just one or the other (it doesn't matter to which) always leads to an unbalanced view of our essential nature."