Having had relatives for a week and catching up with work I am now catching up with the community.
What a very deep and interesting thread - I have really enjoyed reading everyone's comments which made me think of the following.
Have you ever witnessed yourself or another adult "having a tantrum" as I used to call it or over reacting to something? It just didn't seem right to me as I or my ego used to think
Using "having a tantrum like a little child" as an example is probably a very good description, however, when you understand why, you can understand the adult.
When emotions are supressed in childhood and we are not allowed to display them, it's like we stunt their growth and don't grow up in these particular areas. Almost as though we place a restrictive cover over them so we don't have to deal with them to keep us feeling safe.
It's difficult for me to explain but through meditating regularly and not looking for any specific results I have found that every now and again these supressed feelings have surfaced with a sensation or feeling in the body. Although it initially took a great deal of courage to accept and observe the physical feeling, by doing so it went away and in actual fact there was no reason for me to fear doing this simple exercise.
This is when the saying "The map is not the territory" is so very true. I believe now that parts of my ego or map of reality will always be improving and updating to serve me to constantly grow and improve myself to be of the best service I can be to my purpose.
When I was about 30, I went through my "searching years" as I call it and I very much relate to this being my spirit or true being was in desparate need of nourishment.
I am just simply enjoying this now amazing journey and often when I spend time with some people and animals I feel a deep sense of love and compassion for them as though God, someone or something is gazing at them through my eyes and I know they sense this. That's the only way I can describe it. I hope this makes some kind of sense and I wish you an abundance of peace and joy
