I have to quote Gus from another thread:
I have to second that statement of Darrens about giving into astonishment. As soon as one "thinks", "a-hah I'm there!" You're not!
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Yesterday has been fear free, today I am sorry to say, isn't.
Darren and Gus pointed out that the fear probably comes from fear of death, as it is the basis of all fears. During the night, when the light is gone, it seems to be a bit easyer to fall into the trap of fear.
Not sure how to do this, but I know I can overcome fear of death in the end. I know that my fear of death is not so much fear of death, but more fear of the unknown, the "what comes after". Most scary is the thought that there might not be anything after, that all I have done, lived, feeled, is just wasted into nothingness, and that particular thought makes my life as I live it today seem very insignificant, useless, as well as all of the "accomplishments" of other human beings.
On the other side, I know that every person who has gone a step further up the ladder of enlightenment talks about the fact that they know, feel, realise that the soul or whatever you wish to call it is eternal, "it has always been and will always be" is something I frequently come across. Paul Wilson talked about that animation cartoon " La Linea " an Italian cartoon made by the shape of a little man ( with a temper ) in a horizontal line:
He said this is a great analogy for man. The line represents our soul, the shape of the man our body's.
The shape of man is part of the eternal soul, and it comes up and it disappears, but the line is always there, unbroken.
However, all this is wisdom from books, not from experience. I feel a bit stuck at the moment. I will only get further if I drop fear, and I can only drop fear at the moment that I Know my soul is eternal, that higher realisation that so many people talk about
after they dropped fear
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