reading back to the part where Darren said
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But, in my experience, it nearly always arrives and if it doesn't, something else arrives in its place that is close or better, as if your Celestial side really did know what was better for you.
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I suddenly realised that I have been using the LOA allready.
Halfway through the year, I got a huge, no let me rephrase that HUGE bill from the IRS. I couldn't cough up the money, so I had to make a deal with them, resulting in me having to pay 3000 euro's every month for a couple of months.
This caused great worry for me at that time, becaust my thought was "where am I going to get 3000 euro's a month ! "
Apparantly, the answer was given, because a month after my first payment I got a deal with the Royal Dutch Navy resulting in: you guessed it, around 3000 euro a month !
I was so deep in worry at that time, that I never realised that I must have attracted it, because what are the odds of something like this happening "out of the blue".
I can remember when I was younger I always had this thought "things allways seem to work out for the best" and usually it did !
Then I had a troublesome time around 2003 and I dropped that faith, and with it came the struggle ! Around that same time my fear of death crept in now that I think of it. I have experienced an increasing level of discomfort from fears, fear of going bankrupt, fear of my financial situation, fear of phone calls from people who might want money, fear fear fear.
Since the many things that have been handed to me the last couple of days in this forum ( it is almost too much all at once, so many wonderfull pointers and guidelines ) are starting to take their effect on me, I am feeling a shift happening inside, as if a new insight is surfacing... not sure how else to describe it..
My fears have either dropped to a level where I can't feel them anymore, or maybe they are non-existent, but I feel a lot better than I have in months, if not years. It is just a small step, but that's how the greatest journeys all started, with one small step !
I can't thank all of you enough for posting your thoughts, beliefs, experiences and insights in the forums...
