Hi there Chris and Bhavya, keep releasing the garbage and create room for all the joy and peace you both deserve
Hi Gus, it's a blessing to feel appreciated, thankyou - if in anyway I can help or make a difference in someones life here, this is my greatest reward
I mentioned the "little place" about a week ago when I was explaining to Audrey about it being normal to experience sensations, colours etc. during meditation.
I don't recall mentioning it prior to that but it's possible. What I didn't explain clearly enough was that both times within a week I became aware in great detail of the exact layout of the home I lived in (even the smell of the shoes) and the school I attended when I was very young (I could clearly remember where every classroom was situated.) It felt quite remarkable.
I've always said that I just accept whatever comes with each meditation - it's the improvements it makes to my daily life that is important to me, however some of the experiences and sensations are lovely and amazing.
The slapping of the leg will have been horrible at the time, yet when it came up in meditation it wasn't painful at all, it simply helped me clearly understand where some hurt and anger will have been created in me. I sensed a lump in my throat and a sick feeling in my stomach but it couldn't affect me
When we let go of supressed emotions or negative feelings I believe we become more open and free and yes, I agree with you our map of reality changes for the better. We kind of become unstuck. When this happens we get rid of more filters and see and experience life from a different perspective.
I hope that makes sense to you - sometimes I struggle to explain my thoughts clearly
A huge thing for me was learning to recognize any negative emotion, notice it quickly and allow it to go. I believe when we get rid of more and more rubbish we have more room to consciously replace it with good things like feeling thankful, loving, positive and happy.
That being said, I am still the same person but with a perspective that just keeps getting better. I really like and love myself (not in an egoic way) and at the risk of sounding crazy, I'm more like a child than ever and love it because whatever anyone may do or say now is up to them - I don't have to allow it to affect me.
As always I wish you happiness and joy on your journey
