Edwin, my spirit felt a deep sense of emotion and joy as I read about your progress (and also overcoming your challenges) We all need to find and help others find the true inner peace and happiness that is within us all, waiting to be re-discovered. I am so very happy for you.
Because meditation is progressive, I think of it like "priming the pump" of the old water well.
Suppose a group of people were making a long journey and were very thirsty. They came accross an old water pump and began to work the pump up and down again and again but no water came out (however it is coming up the pipe in the ground, but because this is not seen, many will walk away thinking the well is dry.
Some stay on and as they stop priming the pump, to argue whether they are wasting their time and complain of how thirsty they are, the water recedes back into the ground.
As they continue stopping and starting priming the old water pump, the water keeps coming up and going back down and no result is seen, although if they had been consistant and persisted priming the pump the water would have begun to come out in little spurts at first and then it would begin to flow easily.
You have been consistant and persistent Edwin and I have seen you celebrate other peoples successes before you have succeeded yourself and I admire and respect you for that and I celebrate your much deserved success.
I wish you an abundance of inner peace and happiness on your continuing journey of self discovery
