I have smoked pot on and off for many, many years. I feel personally that they do not mix for me. I do meditation (now Lifeflow) for many reasons but to become enlightened is not one. Enlightenment is just realizing who is aware. Aware of thoughts that say i am John and this is my story etc. Awareness that there is no real thing outside of this moment except presently arising thoughts that John believes. However John seems to have his own karma, desires etc that seem to have little to do with this awareness.
John has no control over the millions of circumstanses that come together to create addiction ect. In fact i am that which witness's Johns actions including having the desire to smoke or not. John has gone many years without smoking while doing intense meditation and sadhnas and has smoked a pound in 6 months. As October creeps closer John begins to think more and more about it. My only hope is that Lifeflow and other things John adds to his life will lesson the anxiety and desire. Or he will smoke again. Within John there is a war about this. Two stories playing over and over.
If "I" can just watch this. Stay as I the witness and let john do what he will maybe John will not feel the need to smoke. If not, if I"I get cought up as John too much the John will smoke.
Heres hope that "I" as pure soul, as awareness, as self, can be see by itself deeply enough...
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