Hi Tom -- this thread came at a good time for me!!
I'm on the every other month plan and finishing up LF7. Unfortunately, I haven't been as dedicated as you have been! I get in a Catch-22 situation -- when I visit the Forums, I remember/make a point to meditate. Unfortunately, when I visit the Forums, I also become convinced I'm doing everything completely wrong, throw up my hands and stop.
I had decided earlier this week I need to just "shut up and do it." Since I find the Forum distracting, I'll add a tiny "M" on my calendar (next to all the other tiny letters for medications, exercise, etc!)
I suffer from PTSD, PMDD, hypertension, and Type II Diabetes. My oldest son recently was released from prison, immediately found a job and seems to be doing great. My mother-in-law passed away from brain cancer. I thought we were (finally!!) easing into a good time and I was finally focusing on losing weight (down 20 lbs since mid-March!!) when our insurance company notified me that it would no longer cover one of the anti-depressants I take for PTSD and PMDD. Having been on the drugs for over 10 years now and being several years post-menopausal I decided to see how I'd do without the drugs. Then #2 son announced he was suicidal. He is only working part-time and not covered under health insurance. (He can come back on ours when the new laws go into effect in January because he's only 20). Getting him the care he needs has maxed out our line of credit, we borrowed from #3 son's savings account until it's down to zero and we are now financing his care by having our daughter take out as many student loans as she can. So for the last few weeks I've felt very "raw" (as well as very poor).
Like you, Tom, I've compiled a playlist -- LF7 (which I start playing 20 minutes into the track so I can keep my whole session under 40 minutes), then the depression guided meditation, then the brief silence and Gratitude music (where I also think of all the good things in my life [great minds think alike])
I find the Forum discussions fascinating, and I'm resolved to just not CARE whether I'm doing it right or wrong. I'm just gonna do it!!
I hope by the time I reach LF1 I can report as many positive changes as you've experienced.
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