Do I feel the experiences make me "special"?
I am fully aware (I think) of the tricks of the ego awareness. That is why I am carefull with the interpretation of the experiences during meditation. Because we all interpret things from our conditioned point the vieuw. So even if eventually we reach a state of ultimate consciousness how do we now for sure? Because it would be impossible to explain. You are very right to say that the state of mind in daily life is a barometer of the progress we make, and yes there is a clear difference after 20 years of meditation (with a few huge gaps) bud I still do not have the feeling dispite very profound experiences that I did reach the full potential of consciousness behind the ego construction and I do not know if I ever will
But if with this sadhana or discipline there is more understanding for my fellow men, greater empathy with all living beings and a greater grasp of the deeper state of onneness we indeed all posess (and probably are looking for otherwise we would not meditate with lifeflow), than ok that is a real benefit, that everyone can achief, and every experience we experience be it my experience or your's or everyone elses for that matter can make us richer and help us grow. I believe this is the purpose of project meditation.
