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[Edwin]

For me things started to go wrong to my own feeling right about here at that time:

I have been quite busy with my 2 attraction projects last week.
The results aren't what I expected, some good some bad.
However I am giving you guys an update so you understand what is going through my mind at the moment.

Last friday, I went to the bank with my sister, who is an accountant. I had received the nessacary paperwork from the accountants office, and talked everything I wanted through with my sister.

The talk we had there was a intellectual fight of 90 minutes, after which my sister and me were both exhausted.
The bank agreed to certain things ( amongst others, my car ) which is a good thing, but other things that could help my company grow faster which might be a bit of a risk for them, they didn't agree to... yet.
I have to say yet, because they argued quite strongly on those points, but refused to say yes or no on the matter, leaving me hanging for the entire weekend.

So I am still meditating, using the exercise of graditute, but the conversation has left me feeling a bit... angry actually ( didn't even recognise it until the next time I meditated ) because it felt like an attack on my efforts to rebuild the company the last couple of years, and I hated that.

When I am at peace with that again, I suspect things will improve again for me. I guess I expected things to "flow" easily for me, but I realised that it doesn't work like that, I can control my mindset through the graditute exercise, but I still have to work to get what I want.

I am not giving up, I know what I want and I will get it !

I feel different now, because Pollyanna explained some stuff to me. I suggest you read the whole story here : What are you attracting right now?