Hi guys,
Sorry I haven't replied sooner but my machine has been giving me fits and just now getting online again.
Gus sorry you had a rough start also but I am happy to hear you have pulled through the mess.
I hope that the peace I feel continues to increase so I can get to the point you're at.
lenapegirl, it is awesome that you have helped other people and have the ability and knowledge plus a therapist to help you with the PTSD. My therapist recommended meditation, exposure and CBT. I've tried EMDR therapy it helped a little. I've actually tried pretty much everything except hypnosis. It seems to me as if the meditations, prayer, facing my traumas and trying to realize that the traumas are "over and done with" really help me move forward a little at a time and I'm all for progress, of course they still affect me everyday but at least they are getting less disturbing over time or I'm just facing them finally? I don't know for sure how this is all working together but something is working.
The EFT might be good to try if you can find someone to train you (if you aren't already trained in it). There are several here on the forums such as Giles that are really proficient with it.
I will also testify that my faith along with meditation seems to ease the PTSD emotions off. After years of hell, tbh, if I can catch 5-30 minutes of peace or longer I'm happy for a week. Each time that a window appears, it's like someone putting a pin in me and letting the pressure out. I'm hoping soon that I can become less on the defensive and more on the accepting side of life. It seems that the enemy basically is between our ears until we make peace with ourselves. That is why I mentioned the forgiveness. I've blamed myself for and lived with shame of things that were beyond my control. I've also done the same thing with things I have done that I did have control over but just didn't care about anymore. I had to forgive myself as deeply as I could, others and even God. Holding unforgiveness was just making things worse not to mention it's physically horrible for our bodies and psyche. There is no room in my life for guilt. There is however a lot of room for thankfulness, it could have been much worse.
I would like to say that through meditation some repressed memories have actually surfaced and gently eased their way out of my life. Learning how to deal with underlying fear is still a process I'm working on. Having faith though makes having fear unacceptable. The meditation helps me increase my concentration on my faith which gives me larger windows of peace. Just my opinion but I find it well worth the time and money to learn.
I would be open to suggestions from you if you feel like sharing.
Berni, I'm am happy you are finding meditation to be helping you heal. I'm am so happy I took the chance on this program and I thankful for all the wonderful people on these forums.
